Hey peoples..yeah i haven't really written in this thingy in a while...um we lost hte homecoming game on friday night..which sux balls cuz it was against south..but yeah i saw Kathryn omg i missed that woman...yup shes changed and saw Claire too..but i see her on sundays...and yeah ooo and lol i saw a bunches of poeples i hadn't seen in a while..hehe FISH!!! i missed you!!!

but um  yeah last night was HOmecoming..wow it was fun but yet i was kinda pissed off too...hm...it was fun hanging out with all my of my friends...first i went to Joes Crab Shack w/ my buddies and we ate there and lol it was funny then went to the dance w/ Jenna and the car ride there was mucho fun...and yeah got to the dance and took pictures w/ my 2 bestest buds Christina and Jenna and then took one with Victor..hopefully they turn out good..hm..the music was gay till like the middle and oooo yeah they played one of my fav songs..."Amazed" by Lonestar..it was tightz lol yup yup..Maysam said that Jason felt really bad for not going last night but its cool i rather him just sit at home and chill then to hurt his foot even more....but yeah then i found out some really disturbing news that really pissed me off last night about Cory...ugh i just don't know...but yeah neways i had a good night though minus the whole yeah...um hope everyone else had a great night...

All i can say is i love my friends dearly...You guys are THE bestest! 

OOOOO Thanx Maysam for aload of things this past week! UR AWESOME WOMAN!

well things for the past 2 days haven't been oh that so great until 2day after school i guess...I dunno the past 2 days its been weird...and i haven't talked to one of my bestest buds..but then i did 2day which made me alot happier..things are starting to go back to the way they were and i'm happy ..theres just ONE problem..and i hope it works out...or else..i dunno..i know that i'mma be sad..

I wanna thank my friends for all being here for me...lol you guys always make me laugh..no matter what..even though i can put on a fake smile..you know that i'm not okay..i love you guys to death to me part..and i will never forget you guys...

but yeah so Homecomings next weeks..how cool is that..lol i still have to go get my dress..aren't i a BIG procrastinator?? lol yup..but oh well i'mma get it this Saturday...yup yup..got a BIG fun day on Saturday..lol i think we're going to the movies too..but not too sure..lol but its gonna be fun!!!! hehe...

Yup, Cory and I are doing pretty good..I love this kid so much!!! Man, I soooo can't wait till Prom season..i'mma be so happy its like my dream come true adn that i'll be the Cinderella waiitng for her Prince to come...ahh..i'm so excited!!! hehe..well yeah hope everyone has a great day!!!! love you! *MUAH*

Well...today was a weird day for me..i kinda didn't want to talk to a certain person...but oh well..i'll probably end up talking to him 2morrow anyways..i felt bad though...oh well...hopefully things will go back to the way they were 2mrw..its been kinda weird though lately..but yeah..hm..yeah saturday went all day w/ Christina taking hte ACTs first hten going to hte mall and she found a Homecoming dress..it looks so beautiful on her...but yeah then went to the Marque and watched half of Cry Wolf which we are going to see again!!!! no matter what..and someone didn't show up till later..so i didn't get to them..so yeah...but yeah school was fun in a way too..but yeah last night Cory and i kinda got into a little arguemtn but we worked things out today..i don't like hanging up the phone being mad on athim or something and so yeah i told him to call me when he woke up..so i talked to him in the bathroom during Religion...so yeah but i told him i was sorry for being mean last night..cuz i don't like being mad at him...ooooo yeah he said he's coming here for Prom..how cool is that..i get my dream come true..well sorta..but yeah i love this kid..

ugh..nothings going right anymore ...alot has happened...and it hurts..i can't talk to Cory on the phone anymore...and i'm suppose to ignore him and all that..but i can't..my heart wont let me and neither will my head...i hate the fact that people can just judge someone before getting to know them...the past 2 days have been the hardest for me..i can't stop crying...and all i can think about is him...what am i suppose to do?  Even though we can't talk on the phone nad stuff we're gonna try and talk to each ohter AIM...even though its not the same..its all that we have right now...and the thing i'm gonna miss the most is hearing his voice...even though i listen to his voice mails like everyday..i still will miss talking to him..but he has a plan...which i think is a good plan..and hopefully everything will work out alright with that..i'mma be so happy..thats the only thing that made me smile yesterday..yeah and the fact that my mom let me talk to him last night...but i know that everything will be fine..and i'm praying that everything will be...i don't care what i have to do..i just want everything to work out...and i guess this is what love is..even though i've never seen him before..its hard to understand.but its just the way you can talk to this person...i'm really filled with mixed up emotions...i know that my parents don't want me to get hurt and are worried but i'm just so friggin mad at them...bcuz of the things that were said that night...oh well...we're gonna try and make everything work out...

Thank you...Victor, Sara, and Christina...you guys are awesome...thank you for listening to me cry and being there for me and comforting me and telling me things will be fine...i love you guys to death..and to those of you who i don't know about this yet...i know that you guys would do the same...thank you...

Message to Cory:
Baby, your someone that i know i've been waiting for..even though u are miles and miles away..i'll always love you..i know that things will be hard for us for hte next couple of months..but we can get through it...We just need to put this in Gods hands and he will lead everything to a right path...No matter what i'll always be here for you..and u know that...I won't and can't forget about you bcuz everything that i possibly do or see reminds me of YOU... and i want you to know that i'll always love you..now and forever...